i really want to go out :( ,

i want tuh meet him , and him & him .

HIM x.x ,

im dying soon . painfully & hurting .

Doing silly things, using nails tuh scratch my hand for nothing .

Depressed , sad , angry & moody.

i want him . i need him .

all i want is tuh accompany him & Be with him ,

Were attached , we need tuh be together .

but were far & seperated .

Fated or what? i dunwann . im so .. useless .

USELESS .

Let me die instead , maybe the world will be better or peace.

i wish i can go out T.T , i wish im happier .

i wish , everything i wish .

but it does not come true at all . why ?

because im useless.

fuckyou chia jiaxing ! x/3 .

bottled up inside my heart ,

i wanted tuh tell him my currently feelings (?) ,

which will be much moremore better ,

but .. i cant ..

i wish everything will end, soon. :'(

im tired of this life. sick of it .

im running away from reality .

i dunwan this life anymore. take it away.

T.T , i just wan dar & my beloveds friends only .

Just this 2 things i will be contented.

Family ? i want too , but its diffcult for me tuh live on .

im stressed. supersuper . :(

i want people tuh talk tuh me . heart2heart conversation , D: .

but no one . hais , im so freaking useless? .

maybe the world without me , this kind of people its much better? isnt it ? .

im so fuckup . __

i hate myself. i want tuh love it , but it stopped me.

maybe running away from home is the best. super x3.

then everyday ton and ton with frens.

one day i will be bad , rotten apple .

how? . everybody who hate me must love it.

hais , i dunno what tuh do now, im so speechless.

taking a walk is better or watching movies.

i need someone , that someone to accompany me.

that someone is yufeng x.x ,

heart to heart conversation ? idk . with him around, im contented and comfortable.

i wish this world or i hope this world it will not be so curel to me.

im tired , sick , fedup & fuckup this life. __

happy 17th monthsary , dar (x3) .

heartsyou lots. lastlong okays.

it will be forever and ever alright .

i know im useless and i never do anything about it .

but the 100 straw hearts will be for 18th monthsary okays.

im trying v.hard tuh pratice it .

anyway, iloveyou & imissyou lots (: ..