Back to the past.

''i really miss you , alot .''

hmm , this post is just for him barhs i guess? ;
if u find it mushy/disgusting/stupid/lame or whatever ,
dont even bother to scroll down nor read it . thx . :) .
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Yufeng uhs , it seems that we never talk lerhs? :/ ,
Maybe 110708 is fading ? i hope not . haha ,
i know you since primary 4 , which is from 4B ? :/ ,
That time were enemies horhs? O.o , lols , then slowly dunno what happen ,
make us become friends , then soon , we chat and sometimes played together.
then i think that time i treat you as so called 'good friend' le barhs? o.o ,
whenever im in trouble , you'll try to help me with others .
from that day owards , i find you v.caring although u always bully wo >: .
then slowly , i fell in love with you , crush on you :x ,
by the end of p4 year barhs? ,
after that when going primary 5 , we seperated . you went to 5H & i went to 5D .
Our recess were not same at all right ? then , when the first day of primary 5 year ,
i look around , went to find baohui and others . but i cant find them neither u .
i thought you was having late recess , but i was wrong , u was in 10am recess .
Sadded ! hahaha , but nvm wad , at msn got chat . :) .
After that , you went to hanzhou(spelling check?!) , and bought a keychain bear for me :P ,
HappydieMe lorhs , :X . First time receive a present from you . i mean crush. hehehe :x ,
i think its because my birthday coming marhs , then i was keep nagging at u for it . LOL .
OK nvm , then you had phone ? , u sms me .
You , Me & Elaine & dunno who , forgotten already ,
quarrelled .haha , then i think we forgiven each other? o.o , i forgot le luh ! so long lerhs.
then u said u want make gans with us , then zarni & elaine became gan ?
then u asked me , "you want be my gans marhs?" ,
then i say " ok . "
you said "what gan ?"
i say " Mei ? .. as usual " .
then you said " no , cannot -.-"
i say "then? o.o"
u say " you want be my gan laopo marhs?"
LOLS , my reaction was so damn shocked , haha . that time so shy & ps x.x" .
then i said anything lor .
then u say "anything means ok ah."
then i say "LOL" to u .
so from 110708 , we become gan laopo & laogong ,
then arnd after 1 or 2 days , i asked u ,
"you considered urself as attached or single marhs?"
u say ''attached '' .
Curious , i asked you who do you attached with ,
then u said me , haha. x.x .
Heart melted , that time still cant believe u said that to me ,
then aft that , got 1 time i remember u said "laopo is the best? " .
Feelings was like so shiok , So happy !! :-* . ,
but i guess , laopo is not the best now barhs? :/ .
laopo v.useless :/ , v.stupid :( .
useless until .. dunno how to say luh .
sometime i wonder , why do you choose me to be yours ,
im not fit to be yours too .. hais .
but then , i dunno why i want to cling on you , tied with you . :( ,
and i know i should not at all . D: ,
hais , i love you , i swear it really never ever change before ;[ ,
but i know you changed , once you told me you dont love me lerhs ,
was so heartbroken , :/ , and that time , i keep asking for patch .
now i know i should not , because maybe letting you go will make you happier ,
i drag you down , i make you sad , i make you worried about me sometime , i make u angry,
and i did not do my job well as a gf . ): .
i failed , terribly .
all i want is your heart , your faithfulness and your concern .
i did not dare to request much from you . ): , i scared you angry ): .
but now , what your action and your words to me now ,
is so hurtful . super hurtful .
you not that so concern to me anymore , you dont talk to me anymore ,
you dont care about me anymore ): , you not that sweet to me anymore .
hais , i know i should not say this lor , because i did that the same to you ,
but not i dont want to care,talk,to be not sweet to you
because i dont have a single little chance to talk to you and prove to you ,
i nvr talk to you not equal i dunwan you anymore,
i still want you de hor ! dun anyhow think negative that i dunwan you hor !!!! >:
Stupid , ok nvm . then i really want to rewind the past .
how i wish i can own a time machine >: !
i want those time when im with you at bukitbatok , 244, 246 & cinema :( .
those times were so sweet , but now? completely strangers.
i walk pass you , you walk pass me.
without smiling nor seeing each other.
hais . i wish all this can stop and return back to the past.
can marhs , yufeng? ): .
i know i only type shit only luh , but the one and only i hope now is ,
dun treat me cold , last time u promise me u wont , and u break it .
but nvm , now dun treat me cold anymore cans? ): .
): ! . and this post , i some part also dunno what i talking . >,<
you still love me marhs? ;