im hurting , im dying . painfully .

PEOPLE , do you think i want to do stupid thing ?!
do you think i want?
i've no choice but death !!!!!! .
i dunwan to leave yufeng alone too k .
jamie , whitney & baohui and blahblahblah . those ppl , i dunwan to leave you all .
but do you think i want ? ......
.....................
im so stupid , i hate myself. i want to cut myself .
but i wont cut , because yufeng will do too ? ..
i dunwan him to worry abt me.
i wan him to be happy , forever.
Hais , why sia? my life sucks.
i talk to whitney jieh just now. she's seem so worry abt me. i can see. :(
sorry .. ppl .. i really hate myself.

i want to die sia.. )): T_T .


Dar ! save me ~ ): .

Whitney,baohui , jamie, cyrus, darren , Elaine , Chengmun , Xiaowen , Nicole & others
save me too .

i just want to die .. :(


maybe i should turn into a bad girl .
which learn , everything is BAD





Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you.
At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.
You have to tag the person who tagged you.
(Baohui asked me do.)
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Milk & Fuji Apple
2. Last phone call: Whitney
3. Last text message: ily bi(yufeng x3)
4. Last song you listened to: Cry -rihanna
5. Last time you cried: Today.everyday.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: crazy. -.- No
7. Been cheated on: Nah
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Nah
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: Yes...
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nah , Nvr.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Purple ,, White ,, Black ,, Green ,, Grey

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Duh
16. Fallen out of love: No .
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes..
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were: of`c .
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Zz. yarh.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yufeng ? :D not counted right? . he's not my fren wat. O.o
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 7/8.
23. How many kids do you want?: 1000 . :D LOL . 4 laa. !
24. Do you have any pets: Yeh
25. Do you want to change your name: Kaelynn. (:
26. What did you do for your last birthday: WM with lovelies.
27. What time did you wake up today: 2 .
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Seeing Drama and crying.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: 16 yrs old and get myself out of the hse asap.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 4 hr.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My Parents dun care me :D
32. What are you listening to right now : Nth .
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No.
34. What's getting on your nerve: Mum .
35. Most visited webpage: Tudou.com & blog & Facebook
36. Whats your real name: Chia Jiaxing .
37. Nicknames: Panda , Bi(yufeng call me that ? O.o & alots) , Xing.
38. Relationship Status: Attached (inserts hearts)
39. Zodiac sign: Aries
40. Male or female?: Female.
41. Primary School?: Yuhua
42. Secondary School: DUNEARN. LOL. no la. x.x
43. High school/college?: -_-
44. Hair colour: i guess dark brown bah?
45. Long or short: huh? . dunno ley
46. Height: 156 -_-
47. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes. Yufeng ~~ .
48: What do you like about yourself: Everything , except . my bad/negative habits or wateva.
49. Piercings: Ears.
50. Tattoos: limbu v.guai wan. thankyou
51. Righty or lefty: Righty ! ~

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: bo ley . ?
53. First piercing: Ear o.o ..
54. First best friend: Yantian ~ Jamie ~ ! (Kindergarten .)
55. First sport you joined: CCA: -
56. First vacation: Genting counted?! LOL
58. First pair of trainers: Nike?

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Oreo
60. Drinking: Milk
61. I'm about to: Watch Ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni. :]
62. Listening to: -
63. Waiting for: parents dun care me :]
64. Want kids?: Yesyesyes ! :D
65. Get Married?: YES ! :X
66. Career?: -

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Both
68. Hugs or kisses: Both.
69. Shorter or taller: Taller at 160cm can liao.
70. Older or Younger: Older.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both larh.
73. Sensitive or loud: LOUD !
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship .
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: - .

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: No. Boyf jiu have. :)
77. Drank hard liquor: i v.guai. thankyou
78. Lost glasses/contacts: My eyes is perfect .
79. Sex on first date: No larh. too anxious la you. :x
80. Broken someone's heart: Yarh .. sorry yufeng ._.
82. Been arrested: -
83. Turned someone down: Ya. -.-
84. Cried when someone died: duh.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yufeng counted? LOL. were friends before. :)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86: Yourself?: Smt
87. Miracles: OK-OK
88. Love at first sight: Yarhxzc.
89. Heaven: Duh
90. Santa Claus: Yes
91. Kiss on the first date: Yes.
92. Angels: Yea

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: No way.
95. Did you sing today?: Nah.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: No. i wont. never.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 11 . 07 . 08 . or when baby . :]
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it?: 11 . 07 . 08
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: if i breakup with him(touchwood) , i will .
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yes.

(everybody in my link is tagged !)