Ended?

28 April 2010 , 6.15am , we ended.

what the fuck sia , i really dunno what you thinking about , i really dunno . i swear ,
you ask for patch , i agreed . and what did i get in the end? your coldness ,
i did not say anything you know? i did not complain neither do i make a big fuss but only hurting inside silently .. have you ever know im hurting ? no right , today morning you said those words to me , its really v.v.v.cruel of you , i dont believe that you dont love me anymore , we have been together for 1 year 9 months , everything , the past , i miss the most. the old you does not say that even if u want break up , i said i cant forget you , you said is my problem . what the fuck are you saying , you really make my heart so pain until my parents ask me what happen , why my eyes is so fucking red and swollen , go school had to smile , but failed. in the end , cried infront of anny . me only a original girl , yet have to suffered this kind of things. i writing this entry while im crying non stop , @ sch i have to hold back my tears . people say about you and me , i immediately cry . how much u hurt me , i really dun care . im here waiting for you , even its so damn fucking hurt like what Elaine mama say , i still dont care , because i love you still . im willing to hurt myself . you said , "you dont love yourself , how to love others?" maybe you are right , but do i care for myself ? i always care for you FIRST. when you fall down and ppl told me , i was like "huh ? pain anot?" , my heartpain . and , seriously , all i need is you , i just dun understand why you left me , you said , no reason. omg , i feel like going to jump down from 15th floor u know -.- , the pain u given .. its really unbearable , anytime oso can attack .. i really love you v.v.v.deep .. i cant forget you at all .. all your images , all your smile are flowing in my mind , do you think is very easy to forget you mehs? what the fuck , you fucking WRONG.
Hais. i dunno what to do naoz? i should be waiting for you barhs?
writing this with tears. Sigh . yufeng , im still here for you although we breakup , because im still loving you still .. yet i cant do anything .. since you want to give up on me .. hais.. no matter what , you will always be in my heart , if one day i really forget you , but somehow there's always a feelings between us , which is special . but naoz , i only know that i want to back to be yours , and start everything again .. i gave you chances .. but you did not give me.. hais.. its ok anw.. i want you to be happy , i rather get hurt by you instead. you know? ):