Gave u so many chances , yet you 1 chance also nvr give me..

Hais , 2nd day without you , really like a knife poking my heart , @ maths class almost breakdown . me only want you niahs , why must you treat me so cruel ? i got treat you badly before marhs.. ? hais , i want a chance , to prove myself , i will be a better girlfriend , but you dont give me a chance.. then .. how am i going to prove it ? recently , i just know that i cant live without you , and you know it . those words u told me , really give me a pain , like a eternity pain . hais , in your eyes , i just a rubbish naoz .. last time , in your eyes , im so important , i miss those times with you , everytime i close my eyes , those images , those memories will just automatically flow into my mind. its really very hard to forget someone you love deeply . like me , a girl who is waiting for him to be his again , im still waiting . i can wait until i old , i dun mind to be a single woman forever. (: . Me always love him derhhs . hais.. can say i really cling-crazy on him lerhs? .. hais. why you change into like this ? where's the yufeng i have know? the caring , the most sweetest and the most funniest. u said, he is dead , yes , he is dead but not ur body wad right -.-" . Hais. me want you back you knoww?): im hurting inside damn deep. the cut , i dunno can heal marhs.. hais. me really want to go die lerhs. T.T breaking down anytime , everything just fall @ me , like relationship , friendship and studies and moremore. me cant tahan anymore , i thought , he wont say break and he could be my listening ear and help me.. but i guess , he's gone nao , hais. im not telling people my prob except him barhs? he's the one who can help me the most. hais. seriously , i need a penknife. i rather i get stab by him and die. i dunwan to stay in this world to suffer a real pain which a 13 year old girl like me should not suffer , i thought we could last , i dun believe there's no everlasting love , i believe there's a true love and a lasting love if you really work hard to achieve that , if you never work hard , how can u even take the first step? control yourself , hais. i put in so many effort , yet ... this is how i get the ending ? . Hais , i dunwan to eat @ recess because i saving money for something .. which maybe you know , maybe you dont know.. i want to save money not just to shop , but buy that *something* , how i wish , that something is on our fingers naoz. hais. i miss ur hugs , kisses and your bigbig hand which holding my hand. i really .. wish .. you did that naoz , i really want to lie on your shoulders again , hugging you @ cinema while watching , and you putting jacket for me . @ arcade , sit with you together and so called to those things , laugh with you again , see your smiles agn , pinch your cheeks and touch your face agn , sayang your head and kissing your cheeks agn . me lehs? miss those times you sayang me , comfort me when im sad , when im angry with my parents , you nag and nag and nag and i listened , those times u nag to me eat , those time you nag @ me to go sleep and cannot sleep late , ask me not to throw away your bear , those time you pinch my cheeks , kiss my forehead although just once , gently pinch my nose and sayang me. wth ? when will those things be back again ? only you , the one and only lim yufeng , who can regain my smiles. hais. i really nothing to say but waiting for you .